Since the end of the competition I have lost all my motivation and gained 11 pounds. I just signed up for a new competition on weightlosswars.com. I'm starting to feel the motivation creep back in. Who knew I was so competitive?

So I guess even though you went to the gym and you're working your butt off in the yard it's not ok to eat 3 cookies and an infinite amount of twizzlers and soda. :(

I don't really have anything new or exciting to report. I just thought I better keep up on my journaling. I went on a really hard core diet the last few weeks of the contest and lost a lot of weight really fast. Then I had a breakdown after the contest, had no motivation and gained 14 pounds in one week. I've been extremely frustrated but my good friend pointed out that since I didn't lose that 11 pounds in a healthy way they don't really count as lost. So really if you forget about the 11 pounds lost and the 14 pounds gained I only really gained 3 pounds right? Well I've already lost that 3 pounds and I'm working on losing the rest the healthy way.

I was going to ease up on the gym and the diet and I sure did! But I've decided that's not going to work for me. I have to keep it up. I will continue working hard so when I go to Las Vegas to get my prize I will look fabulous!

I'm out of control. I have no motivation. Why do I self destruct?

The contest is finally over for me. I was starting to think this day would never come! Especially Sunday, I was so nervous I could barely eat anything and then Monday I refused to eat or drink anything until after the weigh in. The weigh in was at 1:00 so I was STARVING!!!! My final weigh in total was 43 pounds lost. I have lost 9 inches on my waist. When the guy weighed me he said Oh! Wow! but not just wow, a 3 syllable wow. So that made me feel pretty good. They said we should have the results by May 1st.

My mom gave Mike a gift certificate to Golden Corral for his birthday in January, but we could never use it until now. So we went there. I got all the food I've been dreaming of! I was just starting my second plate when the cramps started. Oh My Gosh! Indulgence has never hurt so bad! Then we had taco salad for dinner. I've been planning on taco salad and I was so excited. I couldn't even finish one bowl. I also got chocotacos. After the taco salad I fell asleep on the couch. Macayla woke me up to see if I wanted a choco taco. I knew I was going back on the diet the next day (today), so I had her get me one and I ate it laying on the couch half asleep. It was DELICIOUS!

So now I want to try to lose 2 pounds a week. I'm moving the scale down to the basement so I won't be tempted to weigh in every time I pass it. I think that will help a little with the weekly ups and downs. Who knows? We'll try it. I'll weigh in every Friday morning. I figured if I lose 2 pounds a week I should be to my goal by November 5th.

I couldn't have done this without all the support from my friends and family. I love you.

62 pounds lost, 62 pounds to go! Weigh in tomorrow.....