Confused

I just finished reading an article in the Readers Digest that said you can eat bacon and egg yolks and any fatty protein you want, it doesn't even matter JUST STAY AWAY FROM CARBS! Then I came to work and opened up the internet and up popped an article about how good carbs are for you JUST STAY AWAY FROM FAT! I have 2 hard cover weight loss books on my bookshelf, one paper back, probably 10 prevention magazines. They say my weight problem is due to inner turmoil, genetics and the media. I read that exercising can make you fat because you get hungrier. Oh yeah, I have another book that says eat til you're full then stop. Hmmmm, I usually don't realize I'm full til I'm into my third bowl of taco salad! I've tried using smaller plates to force smaller portions. Some days I'm just so confused! I do know one thing though, I had a coupon to try the McDonalds oatmeal and it was yummy!

When calories shouldn't count...

I can't remember if I've already written about this, but this is what is on my mind right now. Times when calories shouldn't count; liquids, liquids should not affect your diet, liquids should be beneficial. I'm counting frappucinos and soft serve ice cream...

When you're eating alone; the other day Mike stole Amanda's candy bar and I went to bed before him and had a row of chocolate before he came up. That happy moment of self indulgence shouldn't count against me. Nobody saw!

Gummy bears...They're fruit! They should be good for you. Cinnamon bears/santas...Cinnamon is supposed to boost your metabolism so they should be good for you....sigh

I wonder if brussel sprouts were not allowed if I would crave them and if I could have all the chocolate I wanted I would hate it?

Mom, you asked me the other day which is harder, dieting or exercising. Definately dieting. I love exercising now. I love feeling myself become stronger. I hate counting calories, I hate trying to understand it all when every time I turn around the rules change. I'm not on a diet as much as making changes that I can live with. I know, I know, we've heard it a million times and the frustrating part is that the weight comes off a lot slower but my intent is for it to stay off.

Inspiration for mom ;)

I wasn't going to blog today because I didn't go to the gym yesterday and I ate like a pig. But there are a couple of things I want to put out there. I was reading an article the other day about people that blog and how it helps them lose weight. At the end of each persons story they would say what their greatest tip is. One guy said, "Don't let a failure ruin your day, week, month. If you get a hole in one tire are you going to slash the other three?" That made a lot of sense to me. It illustrated how self destructive those inner voices can be. Another person said, "Weight loss must be about self love not self loathing." That was like a slap in the face. If I loved myself would I be so preoccupied with a scale and a size. If I loved myself wouldn't I be more concerned about putting the best things in this body that I love? If I loved me would I tear myself apart because I had a piece of cake? I look in the mirror with disgust but I need to see the body that has had 3 kids. The body that moves me painlessly throughout my life. My healthy body has treated me well, I have been blessed.

warning

I want to start blogging about dieting again so I'm putting up this warning that it will be mostly for me. It helps me think about things when I blog. I'm excited to start again but I'm worried that most of the content will be boring or whiny or blah, blah, blah. So I'm warning you now so if you see I blogged you will know it's nothing fabulous just my ramblings. The support of my friends made a huge difference and gave me a lot of strength last year. I'm so greatful for my friends and family!