Monday, September 19, 2011

Kiss Me Dirty



























Kiss Me Dirty was a 5K obstacle course that benefits breast cancer awareness. Brandy talked me into going with her and I talked my friend Marcy to go with us. It was soo much fun. We started out running and got through the first obstacle which was a sprinkler spraying sideways from the fence. That got some water on my shirt, kinda anticlimatic...I gotta admit I was a little disappointed. From the start line you couldn't see the whole course though so I didn't know what was ahead. The next obstacle was a log wall. Brandy jumped over it, Marcy jumped over it, I attempted to jump over it but as I was teetering on the top log my spaghetti arms gave out on me and I fell backwards and I'm pretty sure I twisted my ankle. Not a big deal though, it was the third time I had twisted that silly ankle. At that moment I thought what would Chuck Norris do? So I got back up on that sad little ankle and ran around the side of that log wall!



After that we walked for a while. The path went from dirt trail to rock trail and we all talked about how we can't run on rocks cause they're too uneven. TB&M! (Thanks Brandy and Marcy! for making me feel like I wasn't the only one who wanted to walk) Then it got fun. There was a big puddle we had to cross, the water was just the right height to make it look like you wet your pants. After that there were some trenches to jumped over. I walked around the side of them like a champ! There were giant tunnel things to crawl through, that was way fun, I felt like a kid again.



We came to a wall called Who Needs a Man? You could either scale the wall on your own or there was a man there with a step ladder to help you over. If I remember right all 3 of us needed a man but I think I needed the man the most. Oh well, at least I made it over the wall and off to the next obstacle before Mike could get a picture of that! We walked a little further til we got to a stadium full of mud and water. Everyone else was throwing mud and splashing around but Brandy and Marcy and I are waaaay to mature for that. I might have got a little mud on Marcy but that was in self defense, and don't even refer to the video Mike took because from his angle it looked like I started it but you know how it is with camera angles! We were all covered with mud. I have to admit that at my muddiest I gave Brandy a hug to thank her for sharing this with us. But I really do love her and I really was thankful!



I want to do it again next year. I had so much fun. I got twisted my ankle, got mud in my mouth, took water from a skinny guy in a speedo and ran through soap bubbles. One of the funnest days ever!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

So what

I've gained all my weight back. I've been dieting from 8am til noon everyday. At noon, I begin the binge of forbidden food. Not intentionally of course, that would just be silly. I'm usually kinda stressed and starving around noon and my attitude has always been, "Why do I have to be hungry on top of everything else I have to do?" Followed by the attitude, "I can't believe you just ate that ya big fat loser!" Anyway, I'm changing my attitude today.

I'm tired of dieting and failing. I'm putting my scale away. I'm going to recommit to the gym. I've been going 3 times a week and hating it, but I'm going to change my attitude from going there to lose weight but going there to be my fittest. I'm going to stop forbidding food. I'm going to eat what I want. I intend to keep a food journal. I'm going to concentrate on adding vegetables to my day, not as a punishment or a deprivation but as an addition to the foods I like. I'm going to control portions. I won't feel like I need to binge on my favorites because they are no longer forbidden. I am going to stop hating myself and start accepting myself. I am not a failure because I am gaining weight. I've been going through some tough things and found comfort in food. But I've begun to face them and refuse to feel sorry for myself. I have too many blessings to dwell on my struggles. I'm not saying my struggles are insignificant, I just believe that they are mountains I'm in the process of moving!

Posts I'm thinking about doing soon:
Kiss Me Dirty
How I became Tongan
Funny things Amanda says
Who I put my Panties on for